Leo Legacy

People think I have lived a sheltered life. With experiances like mine I chose to remain silent than to spill it all over the world. You wouldn't think that if you knew me and thinghs I say on my facebook page. But here we go. My life hasn't been simple, it all changed at 16, I got my girlfriend pregnant but I was just a child myself. The fear that consumed me threw me into deep thought and depression, what was I to do, I had a baby due, 5 months into our pregnancy I still hadn't told a soul, I thought it was the end of the world. Me and my Daughter :-) Everyone had told me, I dramatically changed after that moment in my life, and now I know why. I withdrew from everyone and everything, It was too much pressure for someone so young, it was this that shapped who I am, why I matured so young. She was always a blessing, the situation I speak of above is not about her, just the emotions and situatiojs experianced so young having her so young, that goes for her mother too. We both had a lot to deal with. I leave the rest unspoken..... I've supported my partner through an eptopic pregnancy, stood by her in the hospital while being told her fallopian tube needs to be removed, so no pregnancy and it will reduce her chances of reproduction. A few years later, I've noticed her missing for over an hour, I called out to her and could only hear her wheeping, I went into the bathroom to find her sat on the toilet, tears dripping down her face and holding something in her hands. I tried to open her hands but she wouldn't let me, as I convinced her it's OK, she opened her hands to me. She was holding with tissue a clear sack, our baby which had a little body inside with fingers and toes, i could see dark red blood at the back of the babies head. My emotions were strong but I held her tight and told her to let go, we wrapped "it" in tissue and disposed of "it".... A miscarriage as this would of been my third child but we were still only with one. I leave the rest unspoken..... I've ran to the heart wrenching screams of a 15 year old child coming home to find his dead farther, who's a friend of mine too. Only in his 50's, we found him with his arms on his chest with fingers curled in, from a heart attack. My wife helped calm him down and keep him away while I move his dad's stiff, lifeless body from the sofa, to a recovery position, with a first aider and waiting for the ambulance. I supported his children in the best way I could. I put together a slide show presentation for his family and displayed it at his wake to show his great life here on this earth. His name was Bob and we were neighbours for a while, we used to have a smoke together and long talks about the greater important things in life. I missed him, always happy and always looking out for others. More of a friend to my wife at the time. I leave the rest unspoken..... I've supported a terminally ill farther, my farther in-law. I've walked him to the shops, helped him through doors, been there for him at late hours of the night when he needed things in hospital. I watched him deteriorate until his life left his body completely. The whole time I watched his daughter go through seeing her father die, I married his daughter early,  so he could have his last dying wish of walking her down the isle. I supported his daughter after his death the best I possibly could... I leave the rest unspoken..... My lover for 6 years my wife for 3, suddenly became cold to me? No longer welcomed me home at lunch, no longer wanted me around. She would keep herself distant and start random arguments? Why I never understand? So after sometime maybe 5 months she broke up with me and I decided to move out, to which I still didn't understand, we wasn't perfect but we're married and had every reason to work hard at our relationship. As time went on my brother was also experienced turmoil in his relationship, in fact the very same week they split up also. My brother would be at my wife's confiding in each other, but i still didn't see or realise..... 3 months later I get a phone call... It's my brothers ex wife, she continued to tell about how my wife and my brother had cheated together, nearly 5 months before we separated....  On the hen night of his wife's wedding. My heart would stop, my eye sight go blurry, tears dropped.... To which I had another phone call, this time my wife, explaining to me what had happened in detail! I couldn't talk, I couldn't think I couldn't feel. That same day I went to see my kids as I looked after them every day. My brother came to talk, what I felt I don't know, it's been blacked out, maybe to protect myself, we spoke, he explained, I said Ok. The end. They continued to live together with my children, I was forced to spend time with them at Christmas and in weekdays, the only other choice is not to see my children. Only after they seperated I was able to start healing but it took for me to break before they seperated. Since all this, so much has happened and still continues to, I can't speak of a lot because just this post includes people who may not like me to mention them. Everything is true so I will state my experiance to you. When I spromote happy joyful living with spirittual and religious practices, I don't do it from a place of nievity, I know what the world is like. I not only see, I feel and experiance great suffering I just don't allow it to defeat me anymore. Count your blessing just as much as you do your downfalls and you will see life isn't that bad.

21:21 Syncronosities The Power to Move Mountains The sign pointed towards this verse. See Lewis Anderson's interpretation in the photo below. Jesus replied, "Truly I tell you, if you have faith and do not doubt, not only can you do what was done to the fig tree, but also you can say to this mountain, 'Go, throw yourself into the sea,' and it will be done. From the heart of truth, if you have faith without any doubt of your intentions, you will achieve what you set out to do. But you also have the power to move mountains, nothing will be an obstacle to you. ~Lewis Anderson   OK, so a better break down of this for you, as just reading it as it is looks like there was something wrong with me..... Maybe that's why people speak in riddles, the message coming through is so powerful it's hard to interpret or translate back rather as it comes to you as more of a knowing. Maybe that’s also why I needed to refer to Bible passages as without words pointing to it, I would of never of got the message and kept being haunted by the oddities that went on during that time. Anyway back to the message, let me go over it with a descriptions of each sentence and meanings behind the words: "From the heart of Truth" what does that mean exactly? When I say heart I refer to an overwhelming power that is part of every conscious being. It knows the truth, deep down, no matter what the mind is telling you. The mind can tell you, you don't love someone, but the heart will always tell the truth, so the "heart of truth" is an expression of God within us, it's the image of God that we was created in and we can speak from. It means that the speaker is talking from a place of pure honesty and truth inspired from somewhere deeper than thought. I refer to the heart a lot where people would normally say Jesus, God, Tao, universe or other connected oneness we are all part of. "if you have faith without any doubt of your intentions" I think we all know what this means but I will explain how I interpret it. If you take a leap of faith, step into the darkness completely blind, trusting there is a path to follow without a doubt of getting lost or falling from a cliff.... If you also set out to do all that, again from the heart, with good intentions, no second doubting, you have a knowing without question your intentions are good.. "You Will Achieve What You Set Out To Do" Plain English, but 100% of the time, if following your heart like stated above, you will achieve whatever it is you were doing and with a great outcome better than any expectations. If you set out to do things from the mind which wants, money, material wealth and has negative emotions fueling the actions you take, you get the opposite effect. 100% failure even disguised as success sometimes, bringing you all you thought you desired, but as it didn’t come from the heart, the heart will still burn to live truthfully and honestly, making you suffer with mental disorders and other unfulfilling emotions. "But you also have the power to move mountains, nothing will be an obstacle to you." This isn't just exaggeration of what we have said in the first sentence. When we can master doing everything in this way we will be able to achieve anything we desire in life... The ideas mentioned in The Secret about the Law of attraction and some of the material produced by Dr Wayne W. Dyer and Eckhart Tolle all point to being able to live in such a way that life works for us, throws rose petals to our feet and presents a blank canvas to us saying "How would you like me to paint your life today?" And you can answer anything you like, even, move that mountain please… So hopefully this will make much more sense to you now, it came to me at a time I really needed to hear it. Now I have learned the lesson I hope someone else can benefit from it too. Peace

Number 1 Damaging spiritual Meme Hello, Leo here with some more thoughts. This time it’s about spiritual memes I see on Facebook and other places on the internet. Most of them I see are really good and have a lesson to learn or leave you with something to think about. The best are the ones which leave you with something you can identify with in your own live and use it make self-improvements or to remember and practice when a situation in your life occurs. The reason I am writing this is because I see a lot of other types of memes stating very negative things which people should be doing? The worst thing about it is a lot of people like them and put on comments about how true they are and how they have done this in their own life. So what is the nature of these memes I am talking about? The number one damaging spiritual meme people seem to like and agree with across the world is avoiding negative people! I admit sometime it comes across in a “good way” so to speak. It gets put across as to not cut them out of your life but to spend less time with them. Here are few I can think off which mean the same thing but are said in different ways: “Avoid negative people, for they are the greatest destroyers of self-confidence and self-esteem. Surround yourself with people who bring out the best in you.” “Don’t expect positive changes in life if you surround yourself with negative people” “I don’t care what you think about me. I don’t think about you at all” “I am thankful for the negative people in my life. They have shown me exactly who I don’t want to be” “Don’t worry about those who talk behind your back, they are behind you for a reason” “People who create their own drama deserves their own karma” Can you see what I mean when you read them all together like this? I’ll explain each one and my reason for why I think they are no good. The first one I am going to leave until last and start off with the last, working my way up. “People who create their own drama deserves their own karma” – This is instantly putting yourself above another person and condemning someone to be a victim of Karma just because they are at a specific stage in their lives. The famous saying “Forgive them for they know not what they do” is thrown straight out the window for this meme. People are people and they don’t necessarily deserve any bad Karma for their actions. I also believe Karma to be a good thing, it’s a lesson for the person it’s happening to, not something for others to witness and get justice or revenge from. If Karma does play a role in our lives then it’s happening for a reason and that reason is to help the person it’s happening to, not to serve justice no matter how sever the Karma is. “Don’t worry about those who talk behind your back, they are behind you for a reason” This is food for your Ego, feeding you with things like, you’re in front of them, you are better than them, they are left behind because you’re that person who doesn’t talk behind other peoples back. First of all I doubt there are many people around in this world that does not talk behind someone else’s back, it’s something people do sometimes with bad intentions, just something to talk about or with good intentions. People like to make an observation about someone else’s behaviour which is not a bad thing and not necessarily a good thing either. However when someone is talking behind your back with bad intentions and speaking badly about you it only shows that the person is upset with you for some reason or another. What that person thinks about you does not make you who you are as a person. To get involved with it or even show an interest when you are told about someone talking behind your back is pointless. Try to just shrug it off, know who you are and don’t judge, condemn or criticise the person who say’s these things. A good answer if made aware of this would be “Is that so?” then continue on with your business as if it were a fly you just brushed off your arm. I will make the next few brief as I will cover them in more detail in the last one: “I am thankful for the negative people in my life. They have shown me exactly who I don’t want to be” – Are you truly thankful? Or does your ego just love this saying because you’re telling yourself you are better than negative people? Are you truly always a positive person regardless of the situation? This meme creates an “us and them” complex, you are the positive and they are the negative, we all know what happens when there is an “us and them” complex. Fights, hate, war and anything else negative you can think of. It’s kind of Ironic really as this statement is negative in itself. “I don’t care what you think about me. I don’t think about you at all” – As you think this you are thinking about those people who think things about you, you have already given them space in your thoughts, who are you referring to when you share, comment of like this statement? Whoever it is you’re already thinking about them. For this statement to be true, paradoxically it would not exist. You care enough about what others think about you to declare you don’t think about them at all. Please feel free to correct me on this as I know what I am trying to say but I can’t quite get it out in the right words. So here we are the last two which mean the same thing really so Ill cover them both at the same time. “Avoid negative people, for they are the greatest destroyers of self-confidence and self-esteem. Surround yourself with people who bring out the best in you.” – The key word in this is “Self” and it’s that word which we should be focusing on when reading a statement like this. Avoid negative people? Your parents? Your friends? Brothers, sisters? How do you avoid a co-worker? Well I am sure that it is only you who controls your thoughts feelings and emotions, you and you alone are the person responsible for destroying your self-confidence and self-esteem by allowing the negativity to effect you, why not simply swing whatever it is they are saying around to the positive alternative. Be the positive person in their life, the person they like to be around to help them remove negativity from their own lives. You can’t have a negative without a positive so be the positivity. Running and hiding from the dark wont brighten up the room, you have to turn the light on, you have to take on the responsibility for your own happiness. There will always be a perceived negative situation or person passing by in your life, running from it will not help in any way. Finally I get to the last one and hopefully there is a lesson to be learned from this one, I am going in flip mode! “Don’t expect positive changes in life if you surround yourself with negative people” – Surround yourself with negative people if you want to see positive changes in life! Ha-ha, bear with me and let me explain. If you truly are trying to improve your life with spiritual teachings then the best way to remove negativity from your life is to throw yourself in the deep end and practice it from there. What good is practicing to be positive if you’re only ever surrounded by positivity? Negative people and negative situations is the only time you can practice positivity, it’s the only time you can even define the difference. Seriously, surround yourself with negative people and practice remaining positive, people will soon lighten up around you, laugh with you and wonder what it was they was unhappy about in the first place. I’ve done this many times in my life an others have done it for me too at times where I get lost. To summarise this, for someone who is on a journey to improve their life with spiritual teachings these types of memes are damaging for their practice. Replace negative thoughts with positive ones, it’s not all about improving self and not others, your positivity is the catalyst that will bring the negative around you to a new understanding. You should be able to always find peace regardless of outside consequences. Its good practice being around people that are in a negative state, be transparent allow the negativity to flow straight through you and out the other side as positivity. Don’t allow it to consume you. Thanks for reading and or listening, peace out Leo Legacy.